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Thursday, November 19, 2009 @ 11:02 PM
i asked myself why i am doing it.
it's so not me. i knew it.
but i cldnt find any reason to explain my actions
but..
i was smiling becos i see that u are fine.
i was smiling becos u sounded damn happy when u noe i was waiting for you.
i was smiling becos you looked like a kid who was given his favourite toy when i passed you the strepsils.
i was smiling becos u hugged me and say "thank you" profusely
i was smiling becos i see you smiling.
all the waiting and rushing down dont matter anymore becos u were smiling. (:
i guess the reason why i was smiling becos u appreciate wad i've done and becos u were smiling.
well i guess the only reason to explain my actions is that bcos you are impt and special to me.
love you? definitely.
but it's a different kinda love.
different love from D's
not trying to deny anything.
but i cannot feel that feel.
and trust me, i'm looking for that feelings too becos that's the only explaination to my actions.
but the feeling seems to be with D still. :/
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 12:55 PM
i posted this before. something which i long forget. for everyone to enjoy!
INSTALLING LOVECustomer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?
Customer: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?
Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma’am?
Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now.Is it okay to install while they are running?
Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma’am?
Customer: Let me see….I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.
Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma’am?
Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, I’m done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?
Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?
Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?
Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops…I have an error message already. What should I do?
Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?
Customer: It says “ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS”. What does that mean?
Customer Service Rep: Don’t worry ma’am, that’s a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to “LOVE” your own machine before It can “LOVE”others.
Customer: So what should I do?
Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called “SELF-ACCEPTANCE”?
Customer: Yes, I have it.
Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.
Customer: Thank you.
Customer Service Rep: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the “MYHEART” directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, REALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!
Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go…
Customer: Yes?
Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.
Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.
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Monday, November 16, 2009 @ 11:01 PM
a series of events show me who really loves me.
i'm still upset and badly wounded.
but i've decided not to cry anymore.
becos i noe u are not worth it
becos i noe u dun give a fuck abt me
becos i noe i need to stand on my feet again for the ppl who loves me.
i'm jus hoping love will slowly fade away.
and i hope u are happy with ur current life too! (:
take good care of yourself.
to T:you haf always been around for me.
always letting me to lean on you. i noe i'm safe when i'm with youi noe u'll never hurt me.if u are not here, i tink i wun be as happy as wad i am nowif u are not here, i tink my life will be quite screwed upu are not responsible for me. but u behave like you areand i'm really very touched by it. so thanksthanks for being there for methanks for letting me noe how much u care and love me.ur presence is deeply appreciated. (:and i promise to meet u after my papers! :Dto bff: i noe u are not in good shapebut u still spare some time to listen to my problems u are still there for medespite the fact that u are busy and upsetjus wanna say thank you to youlike wad i've mentioned before. u are someone i cannot live withoutand i'm greatful to haf you around thanks babe! (: loves! and we'll meet up soon! 2 more weeks ok!
